diary of a sad man

it's sunday morning..very early in the morning. a group of crazy people is playing mime in a house in a mountain resort. they are having fun. dawn breakes. we had fun..i had fun..and i didnât have fun..i canât look at all of them, or not without mixed feelings.. i'm drunk..well not very drunk but i feel like my brain is swimming in beer and wine. time for some of us to leave home. yes, we should wake radu up, he told me he has to leave first thing in the morning.. bye bye radu..the other ones are late..come on..jedi will miss his train if you mope around. yes, i'm at the station, i'm coming through the back right now. bye bye jedi. i had fun. of course i did. i always have fun with andra. we're just two crazy kids. my cake rules and she knows it.yes..put finetti on it and pretend it has more chocolate that it actualy does. dudes, there is no more juice. wel, you enjoy your coffee. tea for me. i really would apreciate a shower but al l the stuff that comes before and after the actual shower, well i'm not in the mood for that so i guess i'll just go to sleep dressed. good idea. everybody woke up..i'm still standing in bed..i am tired and i have a splitting head ache. i pretend to be asleep when she enters..i can't look at her and i want her to realise that. it's 12 o'clock already and i'm still in bed. went to sleep 4 hours ago. i reminesce last night..moped around without any real desire most of the time. but still i had fun..yet i didn't. wish i would have drunk more..and less..my head hurts. i remember the last time i was in the same house. it was 4 months ago. then i didn't want to go. now i waited for the sweet salvation of the trip back home. i get up. i am hungry. yummy steak, sausages..oranges. no more juice but there is some mineral water. it's warm. kids, don't bother me..go play with someone else. yes, i'm for going to sinaia at the 1400m mark. oh, that means we are leabing in a couple of hours. ok, i'm riding with you now to avoid the cigarette smoke. time to say goodbye to another group. well, it's been kinda fun meeting some of you. thanks for the cooking, you're wife is ok. thanks for still caring about me. and you? well, thanks for acting like i'll eat you..but i realy don't care. hey sis, we'll be leaving in a couple of hours. do you have any travka? yes, i'll wait for the dvd's to be ready. these are different than the versions i have..but i still sing along. time to get ready. is she ready? she's not coming? ok, i'll ask. yup, you were right. she said she'll leave by train. time to go. get my pack. i'm saying goodbye to you now. you are kissing me and i don't really feel like huging you so i just slightly lay one hand on your shoulder. bye. won't see you.. a hug for my sis. ok, now we're realy going. stop counting mister owner..we will all eventualy leave. i really want to go home. i don't want to stay there any longer..but why do i feel like crying? it's not because i'm leaving. maybe it's because i will not be coming back the next time. yes, i dont feel like coming back.. well, it was fun. take care of the kids. bye.
goodbye.
and yet i had fun.