Tuesday, July 17, 2007

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it's lyrics time again :P

Speak to me
For I have seen
Your waning smile
Your scars concealed
So far from home, do you know you're not alone
Sleep tonight
Sweet summerlight
Scattered yesterdays, the past is far away


How fast time passed by
The transience of life


Those wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again


Beyond my dreams
Ever with me
You flash before my eyes, a final fading sigh
But the sun will (always) rise
And tears will dry
Of all that is to come, the dream has just begun


And time is speeding by
The transience of life


Those wasted moments wont return
And we will never feel again

still anathema. emotional winter. i'm thinking of the same person as in regret. the lyrics were so clear when i read them, i instantly thought of her.
but this was accidental. was listening to the song because of another person.
you know when someone asks you which news you want to hear, the good or the bad? well, i'm going to start with the good for no other reason then to ruin the whole logic in my train of thoughts :P.
so here it is
i decided to go to wacken open air festival next year. what is that, you ask? well, it's the biggest open air metal festival in the wolrd. normally that would impress me, but i would forget. but not this time. iron maiden is anounced to play and i simply cannot miss another opportunity to see the band i love the most playing live.
the festival is a year from now but tickets are allready on sale :))) i got mymind seton going and i really want to do it.
this thing had me psyched until..well, until i rememberd something.
and now comes the bad news. but i'm not going to say anything becausedeni will read this and i said i will shut up about it because it's simply too lame :P .the main idea is that it totally numbed the "wacken effect". bla bla bla
when, or if i get the mood, i'll blog about other stuff like b'estival and sepultura..
stay tuned..

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

regret

As I drift away... far away from you,
I feel all alone in a crowded room,
Thinking to myself
"There's no escape from this
fear
regret
loneliness..."

Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries

I wish I didn't know now that
I never knew then...
Flashback
Memories punish me again.
Sometimes I remember all the pain
that I have seen.
Sometimes I wonder what might
have been...

Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries

And sometimes I despair
At who I've become
I have to come to terms
With what I've done

The bittersweet taste of fate
We can't outrun the past
Destined to find an answer
A strength I never lost
I know there is a way,
My future is not set,
For the tide has turned
But still I never learned to live
without regret.

beautiful lyrics, beautiful song. anathema, regret.
and they are somewhat fitting. recently i found out that a person that i once held very close to my heart has pretty serious health issues. not just physically but mentally too. and i can't help feeling like a huge jerk because when i had the chance to comfort her i chose to be an angry child. and now..shes a million miles away, literally. all the way to the other side of the country and i can't be there for her to show her that i really care, that her pain hurts me too. we spoke, but the messenger is a poor excuse for communication. i want to hold her in my arms and make it all go away. want her to see that life can be beautifully. i want her to let go of her fears. wish i could be there. wish we could be closer. hope that next time when i see her i will cherish her more, because i see that i still care for her at some level.